Back to work and not happy!!

Today is my first day back to work. I kept telling myself I would be fine since Addison would be spending most of the day with her Daddy before heading to the sitters house but guess what...I was only kidding myself. Leaving her at home this morning cradled in Daniel's arms getting her bottle about tore my heart right out of my chest...morning bottles were my job and I am resentful that that job has been taken away from me.

I have only cried once at work but I find myself looking at her pictures quite often. I should never have downloaded her pictures to my work computer, it's too much of a distraction and while I gaze upon them I feel the dreaded pain in the back of my throat from trying to hold back my emotions. Those chubby cheeks just call to me to squeeze them but sadly I am not able to do so.

I never imagined loving someone so much or being so dependent on having that person in my presence at all times. Who cares that I haven't had a decent nights sleep in six weeks, well months considering those last few weeks prior to her birth I couldn't roll over in bed or get comfortable to save myself, but if we are talking about getting up every two and a half hours then it's six weeks. Who cares that my mind and sanity are shot. I mean really, who needs to talk in complete, understandable sentences anyway. And do I really need the invitation to my cousins wedding that I lost within an hour of opening it? I still can't find that stupid thing and I wouldn't be surprised if I go to grab something out of the freezer and I stumble upon it. I can't stand this not being able to pick her up whenever I want and I would be more than happy to continue living my life like I have above if only I got to stay with my little baby buttercup all day long!

I hate to tell this little girl but she is not going away for college, moving out, or getting married...I just don't think my heart could take anymore!

Bath Time

Dirty Baby=Check

Bath Sponge=Check
Baby Shampoo=Check
Wash Cloth=Check
Rubber Ducky=Check
Ducky Towel=Check
Warm Water...baby doesn't do any of that lukewarm crap=Check


End Result

One very clean and happy baby!

Blonde Brownies

I'mmmm back!! Aren't you so excited...lol. I tend to cook and bake more when Daniel is home from work...it is when I finally have someone to hold the baby so I can get stuff done.

My sweet tooth has been in overdrive lately and so today after getting a craving for brownies I browsed around and stumbled upon this one.

Toll House Blonde Brownies~Ingredients:

• 2 1/4 cups all-purpose flour
• 2 1/2 teaspoons baking powder
• 1/2 teaspoon salt
• 1 3/4 cups firmly packed brown sugar
• 3/4 cup butter or margarine, softened
• 3 eggs
• 1 teaspoon vanilla extract
• 1 (12 ounce) package NESTLE® TOLL HOUSE® Semi-Sweet Chocolate Morsels

Directions:

1. PREHEAT oven to 350 degrees F. Grease a 15x10-inch jelly-roll pan.
2. COMBINE flour, baking powder and salt in a small bowl. Beat sugar and butter in a large mixing bowl until creamy. Beat in eggs and vanilla extract; gradually beat in flour mixture. Stir in morsels. Spread into prepared pan.
3. BAKE for 20 to 25 minutes or until top is golden brown. Cool in pan on wire rack.

These were all right but because they taste so much like cookies it's hard to think that they are actually brownies. I did bake these in a 9x13 inch pan to make them a little thicker, if I hadn't they probably would have been more cookie like. I adjusted the cooking time to around 30 minutes. I felt they were a little on the dry side but they definitely met the approval of my sweet tooth.

One Month

Happy One Month Birthday Sweetie!

I can't believe a month has passed since you were brought into our world. I can't wait for all of the months to come!

Weird?

I was casually going back through some of my posts and I stumbled upon the one from November 20th. In the post I wrote...I had another dream this morning about you and you came out with these perfectly round cheeks, maybe you have squirrel tendencies after all...is it weird that she came out with round cheeks? Call it mother's intuition but that line actually gave me the chills. I had a few of those moments during this pregnancy.

A few weeks before I found out I was pregnant I started having dreams about us having a baby. The dreams centered around us laying in bed with our baby while I fed the baby a bottle. I actually told Daniel around that time that a pregnancy was going to happen and it was going to happen soon. Who would have known that when I told him this...I was actually already pregnant. The same thing happened with the gender. I knew from day one that we were having a little girl. I can't explain it but the thought of it being a boy never crossed my mind. I had dreams in the beginning of the pregnancy that it was a girl so I knew it.

I wonder if I will have these same things happen with future pregnancies?? Are what I experienced normal with pregnant women? Did you experience the same thing? Am I physic or just plain weird?


Proof she can hold up her head already...I promise my arm is resting on her back, not supporting her head like it may appear! Is it me or does this little girl look different in all of her pictures?

My Sous Chef

Still haven't tried out any new recipes...do you now how hard it is to be in the kitchen when you have a three week old??? Right now I am lucky if I can get some quick fix meals in and you might as well forget about baking unless someone else is home. I attempted to make chocolate chip cookies the other night and it was a failure do to the fact someone was being crabby. FYI...it is difficult to get cookies out of the oven while holding a baby. Thank god she wasn't being squirmy or it could have been dangerous to both her and I. Now that we have her boppy chair we won't be doing that again!

Anyway, I snapped this picture the other night while making dinner. I don't even remember what I was cooking but I was cooking none the less. She was supervising the process while taking a bottle.

I can't wait until she is old enough to actually get her hands dirty and help me out! Baking cookies at Christmas will be an absolute blast.

How do you get a fussy baby to simmer down?

You place her in your recliner by herself that's how!

Kicked back and relaxed!

Mommy's happy little camper.
You wouldn't know by that little smirk that she had been crying for the previous three hours!
Check out those eyelashes while your taking a look. I am so jealous of them I can't see straight!